This is about CONTROL for WH. And yes you have been conditioned to respond with anxiety. It's referred to as a trauma bond.
If you set your boundary then he will escalate. And he does so to recreate that trauma bond.
I know it is frightening because that is how it is. I had this too. And these terrifying monsters won't apologise, because that is a further loss of control.
I know why you are anxious and afraid, it is because there is something to be anxious and afraid of. A non mol or OOP will not stop these guys, sometimes even prison won't.
So I get it, I also understand why you have meds and why you stay away. I think you are right to do so.
The anxiety is in your chest. Do you have shortness of breath?
Is the feeling heavy? Do you get headaches? Or do you get light headed?
Is the sensation sharp or dull?
When you talk about boiling, do you feel hot? What colour is the sensation? Is it liquid or solid?
Does it ever move to your limbs or does it stay in your chest?
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
