Wife is not who I married... Pls Help Part 3

[LoneWlf]

Just some journaling. Did my morning routine. Got up early to start a load of laundry before I went out on my bike ride. Got on the bike early because it was going to be a hot day. Went for a 2 and a half hour bike ride. On my bike ride I receive a text from W wishing me a Happy Fathers Day. (I wasn't expecting that). I came home to see my S made poached eggs toast and coffee for breakfast.
He also told me the night before that W texted him if he needed her to drive him to get me a gift for fathers day( not sure why she wants to get me something now that she wants me out of her life cuz she never put much effort into getting me gifts before- She would either just make dinner or take me out to eat). My S did not respond to her text. I'm pretty sure my W was just looking to spend time with my S and not necessarily get me a gift-just my take.
S and I went to church - I was wished a happy fathers day many times from our church family. Then my sister and my S and I went to the cemetary to visit my Mom and Dad and say a prayer there for POPS. We then headed over to get us lunch and ice cream.
We came home so that S could study and prepare for his upcoming exams.
After a couple hours S asked if we could go to the park and practice his pitching and shoot hoops. We went to the park with the dog. He will be our starting pitcher for tonights game. We headed home got cleaned up said our prayers and went to bed.
It seemed to be a good day but I was often reminded by families around me that we are still missing a big piece of our family. looks like I still have a LONG way to go. The journey is long but I need to stay positive.