I have an odd view of myself. Yesterday was out with my gentle cousin and I felt very ugly and fat. I didn't want to go out because of the jelly tummy and muffin top from h@ll.
Particularly I didn't want to eat or have my picture taken.
But there is no choice in it.
Surprisingly the pictures don't look like me. That's not who I see from the inside. So strange. So so strange.
It has me overwhelmed and doubting reality.
I tried an experiment by looking in the mirror and then taking a photo. They aren't the same. Which is real?
