From your last two posts it's evident that your all over the place...and that's only natural. What I will say is, time really does help with this.
It's been 9 months since my h moved out permanently and I can honestly say I've reached the stage where thinking about him doesn't have that yoyo effect in my head.
I had counselling which helped enormously during those first few months, and I have the occasional wobbles but I feel now our separation was for the best...I'm a better person now than I was when we were together. I work harder, am less emotional, less fixated on a marriage that was stagnant and just happier.
So carry on working on yourself, it will be a huge leap in your personal growth...a very attractive quality and great for your emotional health.
Btw, OM isn't perfect by any stretch of the imagination...he's having an affair with a married woman.
Me 50 H 48 S 23 S 21 D 19 Together 31 years Married 25 years Separated April 2009 Reconciled 2010 Separated September 2017