The beginning of a long and painful journey

[Rawpain]

Forget that last post. I just had a bit of a panic thinking that this guy is some kind of perfect man- he could be but..

I know that this is something that I can not change or control - so do not even think about it.

I am working on me! and trying to get my thought process in order. training my brain.

Still making my way through the WW threads Sandi2 linked me too. Wow there is a lot and as I do not have the internet at home since she left. I can only come on here on breaks at work.
I wish I had access to this at night when my brain will not rest. This advice is invaluable. I just have to make my way through it.