Thanks Davide for your kind words. I feel like what we go through is such an out of body type experience, and that we're suddenly living in an alternate reality in a different universe where water burns and fire soothes at the slightest touch.
So, thinking about understanding that experience, I am trying to fold it into imagery that reflects that.
I love your insight about my children keeping me tethered to earth. Until April of this year, I think that was very true. But because I was tethered like that, I wasn't able to completely let go and look at the world in all its transparency. That tethered lifeline, even though pure and full of love, was tied down from a place of destruction. After April, when I let myself be free from it and look at the world from a full spectrum, I realized that the tether was still there, but now it was firmly fixed from a place of love.
I couldn't hold on to my children as a way of deluding myself that I wasn't actually in space and that if I just focused on the tether, that it would save me. It didn't, but rather wore me down further.
I know I am taking the metaphor really far, but until you really let go, you won't find that other lifeline that is there for you.
