JS, mediation is not the end of the road. You can still mediate and if you dont agree it just stalls the D process. I went to one and broke down, not very classy but then it bought me a month so it eventually was not too bad I guess. Just go and say that you do not want a D but you are here to listen to what your S has to say that is all. In my sitch H just told me he is moving out, I have felt all along in house separation is better although he has not been a delight to live with. I have decided the time he has left at home I am going to make it the best possible for my kids, a happy home. Believe me, if I can do it you definitely can