Can I really do this #3

[Dtrmned]

Good Friday to all!
Thought I'd give a little update on the week.
VERY quiet week, just waiting for something to happen. W seems to relax for a few days, then she either feels too comfortable or gets in her own head and presses for something then never follows through so that is what I mean by that.

Preparing myself for that when a weird thing happened yesterday. I was making dinner and went to clear off the table. W had been there at the table, knew I was home, knew I was making dinner and had went upstairs for something. I went in to clear and set the table and she had left her notebook open. She was looking for counselors. Weird. I looked at the list and she had made a couple of notes. Nothing major and I didn't snoop beyond just reading the page she had left open. I did remember the names of a couple of them and just looked them up to see what kind of counseling they specialized in. Now ALL of them do couples and individual counseling so no big shocker there. The weird thing is that 2 of the ones she had notes on with whom she spoken with were actually christian based practices. With her views on organized religion being so bad, you would think she would have just crossed these out and not even called. I don't know if this is good (she is thinking about counseling for our R) or maybe she is just wanting an IC so they can guide her through her own detachment and moving on with her life. I couldn't say, but I see it as a positive sign either way.

It has been a difficult week internally for me. I have succeeded in not snooping (and you can tell me if you think reading the paper was wrong, but SHE knew I was there and she could have easily have hidden it or just closed it.). I have done well in my exercising and personal stuff this week as well.

Still interested to see what W and kids have planned for Father's Day on Sunday. I always plan Mother's Day and She always plans Father's Day. If nothing happens, I'll grab the kids and hit dinner and a movie. I have decided the day is going to be good no matter what. That I am not putting too much weight on what does or doesn't happen.

W is quiet and reserved. She initiated quite a few small convos this week. I responded politely and ended them quickly. I haven't texted or called her unless she did so first.