You are grieving for the M that died. It's needed in order to move forward. You can do this. You are a man of strength, honor, and loyalty. Your S15 is hurt, angry and frustrated, but he is learning how to be a man, by watching how his dad handles this crisis.
((hugs))
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
