I think tonight might be the first time in over half a year that I am, well how's the best way to describe it,in a better place or doing better than my WW? I know she is at a low/dark point in her life but until recently it seemed she had all the control and power over things. Since she has moved out, I feel as if I'm moving on. I don't know if that will be with her or without her but Im improving and moving forward.

My girls and I have fun every day that we are together. They have become better listeners and I am working with them when they get upset (common to bicker with each other) for whatever reason to explain why they are upset and talk through it vs just shouting something while getting mad (like stop!). Our relationship is better than ever.

So last night WW sent me three texts about getting D5s ears pierced for her birthday and a family BBQ at school tonight. I chose to respond this morning with "thank you for the updates and regarding D5s birthday, I am on my own planning a party for her. Instantly she responded "I already figured that! Have fun" Then two hours later while we were both at work she sends me a text "I would love to attend her party!" I didn't respond but thought oh I bet you would!Instead she will miss out on the fun, the memories, the friends (some of whom will be wondering where's Mrs.Natash? I wonder why Mr Natash planned and put on the party by himself?)

Tonight I took Ds to the school math night and family BBQ. After we picked up the photo invitations I had made (first time doing something like this and they turned out well). Tonight on her nightly call to mom to say goodnight, D7 told WW we got the invitations, what they looked like and when the party was...then she asked her if she wanted to come! D7 said w said she'd talk with me first. By the time D5 got the phone to say good night, I heard her ask mom why she sounded like that?then she said are you crying? I struggle with what to say and what not to say to D's regarding the sitch but I did tell D7 it was not her place to invite Mom. I know they are in a hard spot and they are excited for the party to boot. So it appears we was crying tonight and maybe for the first time, WW is feeling real pain from her choices made. I have been told commennts on FB from OM have almost stopped, as with him liking everything W posts. Yesterday W posted a pic via Snapchat of her with some devil ears and tail and OM posted "agreed" (from what I'm told, I don't follow fb close and om has blocked me so I can't see his comments) These little things coupled with a few other posts regarding self reflection make me wonder if the A isn't going as well as it has been? Or has WW noticed I'm working at moving on? I don't know and don't want to read into things too much as none of it really matters unless WW takes some responsibility and shows some remorse. I'm just sharing my observations.

What would a real man's / non MNG response to a possible question regarding attending D5s party look like? I may or may not be approached with it but I'm thinking about saying "You made it apparent by moving out that you do not want to be part of this house and it's activities, let alone the family that lives in it therefore you were not invited to the party"


Me:37 W:42
T:14 yrs M:10.5 yrs
D:7 D:5
BD: 1/6/18 OM Discovered: 1/29/18
WW moved out 5/12/18