The beginning of a long and painful journey

[Rawpain]

I have cut off communication with her other than to discuss the kids. I do not ask her anything about her or tell her anything about me. I have not text W for about two weeks other than when I found out about OM. I felt I had the right to tell W to not be sleeping with OM and letting my S6 know about it and when S6 is around. She did this not at W house or OM house but at a gym friends house while at a party- sleep over.
I told her to think about what kind of man OM is b/c he just finalised his D last year due to OM W having an A. And then he could go and do that himself. What a nice bloke.
I told her to thank her CrossFit family for supporting her to walk away from M an H and encourage an A and to facilitate somewhere for them to have sex while my kids were around. What a nice place she takes my kids too.
I just wanted to have my rant and say my piece. I didnt go abusive- well not much- and since then I have not contacted other than the kids.

As for me I know I have things to work on. Listening to others is a big one. Planning and taking charge and organising.ive always been layed back- procrastinating. So I have started writing out goals and putting deadlines on targets. I also do not like change and leaving my comfort zone- so I have started saying yes to more opportunities.
I have planned a trip away with the kids in about six weeks time that W has okayed. I really do not like driving and it is a 3 hour journey. So that will be a challenge for me to over come.

As for GAL. I have already reconnected with many old friends that I abandoned during my M as my W never really liked my friends.They have taken me back like I never left. I go out for 2 hours each week on my bike -the rusty rocket. I swim for an hour once a week. I have started a small excersise routine that I do at home each night too. So I feel I am moving in the right direction.

I am just so glad to have everyone elses input an experience and know that I am not alone through this.