Thanks, LH19. Yes, I assumed it was cake eating. I also think that you are correct in saying it's going to be a ride like no other. I think my plan is to keep LRT'ing, not for her, but for me...as I know that eventually when it does hit the fan, I'll be in far better shape..as many others have said, it's just a rough road. Thanks people, for being here to talk with. I will journal some tonight after work.