I got upstairs, and I smiled a little to myself. I think I'm starting to get the hang of this...slowly...
Way to go, Blakmac! Wonderful job at not asking your W any personal questions.
Yes, you absolutely did the right thing by taking S3 clothes over to the sitter.
I don't know if it would appeal to you, but some guys can get a boxer's punching bag (I don't know the proper name for it), and it helps them release some of the anger, anxiety, frustration, etc. Walking is excellent excerise, if you do enough.
Regarding the doctor's visit and medication.....have you checked to see if there is a free clinic or health center in your local county?
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!