Affair discovered 2

[STH17]

Me keeping my knowledge of W's affair a secret was for me like trying to lead a triple life. I still feel like I'm leading a double life, one where I set W free to divorce me and I move on without her, and another where I still desperately want to save our marriage.

I snoozed W on Facebook today, along with her cousin whose divorce was finalized a month or two ago. Funny thing is the cousin's H had an affair a year ago which is why she filed for divorce. I thought seeing how much it hurt her cousin would have made my W not do the same thing to me. Nope. Anyway, the cousin is a proudly petty person who still trash-talks her XH on FB, and I'd have to say has been a bad influence on my W.

I was about to take care of bank stuff today, but was getting pretty emotional and angry about it so I am going to do it tomorrow instead. I'll have to take my son with me. I might be able to remove my W from the credit card instead of having to close it. That would make a few things simpler and I could keep the rewards points on it. To do that she would have to sign a form to remove herself. That might be a good reality check for her. Or maybe empowering for her to take the next step towards divorce. Idunno. Whatever she thinks is whatever she thinks, right?

I'll also note that I've not put my ring back on since confronting W about A. But I've got it on a necklace. The jingling might be noticed by W...