RR this is why I cautioned against this. I know the PW change was bugging you too death. But being detached would have meant you didn't care and let it go. I am also going to call you out on the "it wasn't planned". What did you think would happen when you tried to initiate? That she would say yes and you'd go to town? Or that likely she'd say no and you'd start questioning her?
RR I feel you were at a critical point. Must like I was back at the end of February. Critical points are times to pull back pressure and pursuit, not engage in it.
What't done is done. We all stumble in DBing, and make mistakes. Likely you feel unfulfilled by the R talk, most of the time we LBSs feel that way after an R talk. We gets lots of maybes and I don't knows. That is why they are counterproductive. So get back on the horse and keep DBing.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018