Friday night. Nothing from W at all regarding pushing for mediation appt still. Quiet as a mouse on that subject. Casual evening at home, did my run, ate, worked,etc.
Saturday, I got up early, did my morning run/workout, cleaned up a little, made everyone breakfast (D had a friend over). Headed out by myself and ran some errands for about 3 hours. Got home, read a book for a while. Late in the afternoon, I did ask the W if she wanted to get out of the house and his a movie. She is not a planner and I wasn't looking for a date, just for us both to get out of the house as we are kind of just stuck there. Would rather her not think of our home as a "prison", but with not much extra cash and the kids home for summer break, there is not much else to do. Made the offer, she seemed very tempted at first, she thought about it, and then decided she just didn't want to spend the time to get ready to get out. Sometimes, depending on her health, just getting ready exhausts her. I didn't push, just said "ok", and went along with the evening.
4am Sunday morning. W gets up to go to the bathroom. She has been up at 4 or 5 am for the last month and has complained about not being able to sleep later than that for some time so I now she wasn't totally out of it. Again, she went to the bathroom, got back into bed, she turned and faced my direction, reached her arm out and actually grabbed my arm. This was a grab and hold, not just the incidental/accidental sleep induced grazing of flesh. She grasped my arm for over 2 minutes. I froze. I'm a very light sleeper, so when she got up, I was awake. I didn't know what was happening. Then it got even weirder. She took her hand off of my arm and reached over and stroked my face. How weird is that? Nothing was said of this, and Sunday I took the kids out for a few hours so we could goof off together and W could have a bit of time to herself. We had a blast, were only supposed to be gone about 2 hours and it turned into 4. We had no plans and no one was in a rush. I didn't text W, nor did she text me. Very pleasant mood around the home. I made Sunday dinner for everyone which everyone seemed to enjoy. W and I then just relaxed, watched a couple of show and went to bed.
Just curious as to what everyone thinks about this. I'm definitely NOT trying to read too much into this, but it seems like she let her guard down for a moment and reached out. We just seemed closer this weekend even though we were apart more than usual. Might be just me as I can't read her mind or know what she is thinking. Reading through other situations and what has happened, this also seems normal as a WW is going back and forth in her own mind. And ok, looking up I realize tha I am already reading too much into this. It may mean absolutely nothing, or that she was just sad at the moment that we are truly parting, so I have no idea and probably will never.
I guess the best way to look at it is that we made it another week in the same house. Still in Limbo, but that is better than pushing towards a D at this point.
Interested to see what this week holds. With Father's Day being Sunday and all, it should be an interesting week. For Mother's Day, I took the family to a nice brunch, got W cards from both children (and one from me as well that ONLY spoke of her being a great mother to our children. It had nothing in it about me loving her or her being my W.) got her a couple of gifts from the kids. Outside of her baiting me into an argument later in the day, I think she enjoyed it.
As I said, this week should be interesting.
M51 W44 T21 M18 D14 S11 BD date 9/17 W filed 02/18 W withdrew petition following week In house separation 03/18 In Limbo and DB'ing since 03/18 W is moving out by mid Nov 2018 A drawing up paperwork 11/18
