Well, W just stopped by to pick up our S. So I put on my DB face. I was polite, upbeat, all of the things. She looked really sad...she has this look that she gets when she's done something (or rather, someone) that is kind of a guilty/sad look.
I asked "how was your weekend?" and she said "I worked a lot".
"Oh, I hear ya. You look sad, are you ok?"
"I just really want to leave."
"Oh, I understand. I'll get his things, and I'll get out of your way."
So that's exactly what I did. I got our S things, helped him buckle up, then told him goodbye.
I gave a friendly wave as they left. She gave a tiny, halfhearted wave back.
I know. I can read her face really well. Something is bothering her that isn't exactly me, and I know she's avoiding me most likely because of it.
Whatever it is, part of me hopes she's feeling guilty. Maybe that's not the right way to be, but she knows that I can see it in her face. Which might explain her body language. Arms crossed really tightly, wanting to avoid a conversation, can't really look at me directly in the eyes.
I hope it's eating her up. Either way, I'm doing the DB thing, and I WILL save my marriage.
I just hope she figures out quickly that the depression she has isn't because of me anymore...it's because of her own choices and issues.
Maybe she'll open up one day. Today wasn't the day, and I'm not going to press the issue with her.
