Been having a hard time detaching lately. WW has been on my mind a lot lately. Had dreams about her the past several nights. In some, she comes back very remorseful and we work things out, and in others she's very cold and still cheating. Always wake up during the dreams with a horrible feeling of missing her. I can't understand how I can have feelings for someone that is treating me so badly and saying such awful things about me. I know for certain I have no desire to be with the woman she has become, but I guess buried deep inside me there has to be some little spark of hope that I can't seem to extinguish...


Me: 38
W:31
Kids: S16(mine from previous R), D10, S9, S4
M: 10 years
T:12 years
BD:Jan 3, 2018
W moved out: Apr 13,2018
Filed for D: Jun 2018
D final: Sep 2019

"Surrender to the Flow"...