I know you're right. I guess I get really lost in how I'm feeling at the time, and I tend to feel too strongly at times.
Today I've just been feeling kind of hopeless. I lost my W and my job within about 3 months, and I often feel like I'm expected (by her and everyone) to just let her go.
I know that's what I have to do, whether I'm DBing or not. It's easy to confuse the two sometimes.
I have well-meaning friends telling me things like "you deserve better", "she doesn't deserve you", "you don't need her back"...and honestly that really bothers me.
Whether it's true or not. It still bothers me because I am trying to fix this on my own.
I really do need more to do. This weekend I have our S. I think it's hard because it's a reminder that things could be fixable, and for his sake it's worth it. I really just wish she felt the same way.
I dunno. She's definitely a WW. No question. I guess I'm hoping for something to change.
