I am so very sorry that you are going through a rough patch. It is difficult dealing w/your xh and having the additional anxiety of where and what your children are doing. Try to step back a bit and just breathe! You need some time to yourself to recharge your batteries. I hope that you will be feeling better soon.

You know how to contact me if you want to chat.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.