update-
Did my daily morning routine yesterday and headed to the gym. My sister called me the night before to help get her car to the mechanic's before work. We had to drive by W new place for the first time. My heart sank as we drove by. Guess I still have a long way to go to detach. Went to the gym and had a light work out because I had some job hunting and follow up to do. Sent thank you emails to companies I had interviewed with and made followup calls with the one who asked for references. They said that I was on a short list of three and that they would let me know early next week.
Then W sends me a text that she called our insurance agent and she has made separate insurance files for both of us and that our agent will be calling me to verify this. My heart sank again. I really looks like she is set on moving on. (I let the text sit and responded OK after dinner.)
I then met up with a friend from the gym for lunch and went out to talk at a park.
My S15 and I picked up my sister after work to pick up her car then we went to have dinner out. Got my son set up for his pie of homework and then went to the dog park with my pooch and met some nice people there showing them how I trained my dog.
It's been a week since I have seen W and I've pretty much gone dark. My gut is telling me this is not working. Having these reactions to W show me that I have not detached and I have along way to go but it also makes me think with my W actions (she has been consistent and unwavering)-she stand firm on wanting to end our R. With feelings of despair what should/can I do? Things look bleak. Thank you for your support and input.


M51 w50
T-20Yrs M-16Yrs
S15- mad at W for not trying and giving up
1 Awesum dog
BD 10/31/17
separate rooms 02/08/18
wife moved out 05/17/18