Moving on (Saying ILY pt. 5)

[mtb1981]

I don't really know. She's definitely not the same person I married. One of her big issues id that she always claimed I was controlling. And I kind of was, but it was out of necessity. I hate to say that, but it's true. Especially financially. We have always lived paycheck to paycheck. She has no financial responsibilty whatsoever. She just wanted to buy anything she wanted without thinking about whether or not we would be able to pay our bills later. So I had to put a lock down on our finances. I needed to make sure everything got taken care of, so I kept a tight eye on every penny. I can see where it was controlling, but at the same time, I needed to make sure all the bills got paid too. I think me being controlling was a big factor in her leaving. She wanted some freedom. Funny thing is, now that she's gone, she can't manage her money and her life is a mess in general. A lot of mind reading going on here, but I feel like she's missing the stability that I brought into her life. In the beginning of all this, I pulled all the classic mistakes and she knew she had me. She knew she could come back at the drop of a hat. She had that going for her and she knew it. Now she doesn't and it was the only thing she had that she was in control of. Everything was spinning around and she could grab on to that, and now she has nothing to hold on to...