Caz, I'm not sure how to measure my level of detachment. I still miss my husband but I don't call or contact him at all. Thanks for your encouragement. I appreciated all of your kind words last fall when I was going through those health problems. That was a terrible time and I'm grateful for your support!
Arsh, thanks. I don't have much hope that I'll be with my husband again in the future. I'm thankful that we didn't get divorced immediately because I would have been like you breaking down in the mediator's office. On the other hand I've had to adapt to complete uncertainty about the future, not knowing when we'll get divorced, how long I'll spend my life alone, and whether I'll ever meet someone else. In the slim chance my husband would try to return to fix things I believe it would happen around Thanksgiving of this year. This is my his favorite holiday and it's a sentimental one for him because we always spent it together. This past Thanksgiving when we were already separated he sent me a late night text saying "I'm so sorry for everything." It's just like you not being able to predict what will happen with your husband. I don't even want to think about my husband potentially wanting to reconcile because it creates too many emotions and it would be so complicated. I just don't think it will happen though. He's attracted to too many other women now to see me as he used to.
