Best I can say is that I have a few good days and then some bad days so I hope folks can pardon me a bit when those occur. When I have my D all is right with the world, but when I do not...not so much. To be honest if I had my D full time and already knew the status of my future living situation, I would be in a much better shape. The possibility of being a part time father instead of a full time one weighs heavy on my mind. In truth I hate it for my W, my D and myself. It's terrible for us all.
V, thank you! Yes of course you are correct with your analogies. I know all too well that no matter the feeling, a person in need can find affirmation for whatever positive/negative belief/thought/feeling they need confirmation of and as is said here many times those who do R curtail their posting. Clearly positive self talk would be a 180 for me. Given that I have the WHY question with W leaving and no info from her, I have spent a huge amount of time in the past trying to figure it out. Sadly I know that's a no-win situation and I need to force myself out of doing that. I will work hard to utilize choose in my day to day with a today and only today mindset. I have searched on STOPP and will as well add that into the work I need to do on myself. Again V thank you for your counsel and words of encouragement!
