Thanks for your comments Job! Trying not to read anything in to it but it's hard!
Journaling: Struggling with indecision today and I don't know why. On Sunday when I turned the oven in to part cook some of the BBQ food it kept tripping out the electrics in some areas of the house. H pulled the cooker out to see if it might be a faulty socket but it looked like we would need an electrician. I called my Dad to see if it was something he could help with but he thought it could be a burnt out element so I would need an oven specialist.
When H got home on Sunday he texted to say that he is still paying for home care insurance on the house, which I didn't realise, and would get an electrician out to make sure it's not the electrics. Because I was away today he offered to come over to the house and let the electrician in. Turns out my Dad was right so we need to get a oven specialist in. H texted me to say he organised for someone to come over on Friday morning and he will again wait in if I can't. That's okay but he has also offered to pay for the basic service and any repairs that might be needed for the oven.
Why am I having such a difficult time with this! He is trying to help by offering to pay but all I can think of is that I don't want his money! Why would he want to pay and keep offering to take time out to sit in our house if he doesn'T want to be part of our family? This isn't something that a neighbour or friend would offer to do. This is more of a family thing. I am so confused and it's making me feel anxious and stressed. Should I just accept graciously?
I don't want to seem ungrateful but don't want to also make it look like we are happy having the sort of relationship of a kept woman!!
Last edited by job; 06/05/1807:24 AM. Reason: fixed contractions
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
