there's only one thing that would make me feel 100% better and its never going to happen.
Yes it will happen BUT you are focused on the wrong thing.
You DO have a son. right? Isn't that alone worth moving forward?
Focus on yourself. Be the best dad possible. Don't worry about your W. She may come back she may not. If she doesn't it's her loss. Your son will appreciate you for what you have done and someone (may be your W, may be someone else) will recognize that and fall in love with you.
But the ONLY thing that can make 100% better is YOU and focusing on YOU (and your son). I know those words are meaningless. I was destroyed when I was dealing with all this BS.
Start running, start exercising. Anything that will keep your mind off things and things that will exhaust you lol so you can sleep. Do things with your son.
