Moving past the WAW-MCL to a stronger me

[Vanilla]

But what does that look like?

In the first few days or weeks post BD I sobbed and raged in impotence and resentment and anger. I did all that.

But recently, tears don't come. I feel anxiety. I feel a sadness and hopelessness -- but it is almost hollow. I'm sad but not hysterical. Just sad. Sad that our depression f#$ked up a great relationship. Sad that she cant see how much of a better man I have become. Sad that I cant go back and look at photos of us without going down cheeseless tunnels. I also feel lonely. I miss the intimacy of the relationship. I miss my best friend as well as my wife. I miss the person whose touch could calm me.

I feel like breaking down sobbing, or raging against something would be healthier -to get it out. But I dont feel that now. And I am worried if I am just burying it deep...

There is a cycle called the Kubler Ross grief cycle. Please Google it. This cycle explains the phases of grief, it applies to the loss of your R. The phases comes in waves and in any order.

This is perfectly ok, by being here you aren't burying anything, it's healthy.

And you are working onow those goals aren't you?

V