Okay, my goals for the next three days are pretty simple. 1) Stick it out and stay put! No matter how much it hurts to be away from my H - to keep my butt in the apartment!I have to get things from the house tonight after work and tomorrow night after work, but aside from that, I will be at the new place unless I am out doing fun things or laundry! I will consider it an acheivement to have made it through my first three nights in my apt. 2) To take bubble baths every night, do lots of reading, and thoroughly enjoy my one-on-one time with my S. 3) To ride the wave as best I can, and not beat myself up for feeling weepy or insecure these next few days.
What am I going to do to avoid slipping back into old patterns? Well, for starters, I am going to stick to my H visitation schedule for now, and not try to force this process along. Here it is, for grin's sake: Sunday: House Monday: House Tuesday: Apt Wednesday: Apt Thursday: House Friday: Apt Saturday: Apt
Obviously I will make changes as things change, but I would like to stick with this plan for at least the next four weeks. H knows he is always welcome at the apt, and maybe if things are going well after the four weeks, I might consider giving him a key. Until then, though - no unannounced visits. I am going to try to learn how to occupy and enjoy my own space. I will, as always, let you guys know tomorrow how everything went.
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
Just wanted you to know that I'll be thinking of you during this time. Lots to take in after what you just heard from H. As Betsey said..ride the swell and it will subside. (((()))) Take care and we'll be thinking of you. Tootles......