I'm going on as if it's over. Because right now, it is.
Honestly, I'm worried about her well-being right now. And I know that's her battle to fight. I'm wondering if she was going to talk to the psychologist about her problems, and wasn't ready to talk to me, and wondering if I messed that all up. Because she really DOES need to do that.
I'm definitely second-guessing myself. I'm not trying to derail her healing at all, I'm only trying to step up and handle this in the best way that I can. I keep thinking that I'm doing something wrong, even when I know I'm doing what I need to. I absolutely have some issues with how I view myself. I am trying to be more positive, but this is all very, very draining and I keep losing focus.
DB is absolutely the most difficult thing I've ever done. I just wish that I could see results faster...and I know I have to be patient. Ugh. Being patient is difficult. lol
