Advice on My Scenario Pt 12-Less Talk More Action

[OrangeK]

Ok. Here goes a question that has been bothering me, it will be a speculative answer, and probably not the most productive question, but i have to ask it as i haven't because i knew id get a poor reaction if i did, but I'm asking anyway.

Its more mind reading, and speculation, but my goal is to get this all off my chest and out here so its vented and purged from my system. Bear with me.

Steve, something you said the other day has stuck in my head
"Hate is closer to love to apathy"

Based on the behaviors of WW's in general,

Despite what she may consciously think, i know she thinks she hates me, or doesn't love me. Deep down in the mind of WW, do they still value LBH over OM?

It seems they are more about the re writing of history then actual fact, which makes sense, they are avoiding the audacity of what they've done.

I consider my WW and how she was with her EX at the beginning of our relationship.

I feel like this is the cycle

She is In love with Guy #1 (her Ex)

She loses Limerence with Guy #1, and begins seeking elsewhere.

When she finds Guy #2 (the guy she dated briefly between me and her Ex, Guy #1) she begins the affair, and Guy #1 is devalued.

Then there is 6-8 Months of Guy #1 wonder WTF is going on while she is sneaking behind his back with Guy #2.

Guy #1 leaves or she leaves him.

She now uses Guy #2 to try and make Guy #1 Jealous and begin the pick me dance.

Guy #2 is a rebound, he is not recognized on social media or anything like that. He is a secret publicly.
GUy #2 doesnt last long and is discarded, he was only there to make Guy #1 jealous. (In the case between her EX and I Guy #2 lasted about 6 months)

Enter Guy #3 (me), She now claims to have healed and moved on from Guy #1, She tries to be friends with him and his new GF. This is now a year or more after R with Guy #1 ended.
She still continues to try and make Guy #1 jealous of Guy #3.
When Guy #1 doesnt do this, she pretends everything is fine and moves on with her life, perhaps temp checking Guy #1 from time to time.

Guy #3 becomes new public relationship, posted on Facebook and the whole 9 yards. (in my case, baby, marraige,honeymoon etc.)

Guy #3 becomes Guy #1. Limerence Fades again, Rinse and Repeat.

I have switched from Guy #3 to Guy #1 now.

OM is now in Guy #2 position. even over a year after seeing each-other, and 8 months after MY separation (where they have been totally free to develop their R) but she still hasn't recognized the R publicly at all. MIL and FIL have met OM i believe but that happened with Guy #2 last time too.
When she meets a new Guy #3 and I am in a New R this cycle will possibly kick up.

I think it likely this cycle takes a bit more time each run as the relationships are more serious and longer.