O - sorry I disappeared for a bit after our last exchange. I see that you have been given excellent pointers about what to do and what your focus should be on. I can't add any more to what they have said but just co-sign it.
For closure - let me add one thing.
Even if your W gives you some semblance of an answer why she did what she did, it will NOT be satisfactory to you. All the reasons my W gave me for BD were, IMHO, not good enough reasons for the separation and giving up on the MR.
For me the stakes were so high - the lives of little children are involved.
So, the answers will NEVER provide closure. Let go of that need to know WHY. It's a dead end.
