What have I done?

[Lyrael]

Thanks for the hugs, PIB!
What a dream, Pattie! Sounds like my elephant in the living room analogy.

Okay, last night was great - both the party I went to with friends, and the movie afterword (H and I went to see Home On the Range - without S). We had a blast. Tonight I will be going to my apt for the next three nights. H said this morning that he didn't want a D. Yes, you read that right. He actually said that.

Am I turning cartwheels? No. We have a long way to go before we are out of the marital difficulty woods. And he has changed his mind on this before. And there's also the possibility that he could have further problems with infidelity, in which case all bets are off and I WILL be getting a D.

I am a little scared, but not in a paralyzing way as I was when he was officially moving home. We are supposed to get our house sold, so I am not sure what will happen to us (H and I) when that happens. I am going to keep my eyes on the goal here - being the best me I can be, and making my apt a home over the next few months, as the house will be turning into a complete construction zone.

This doesn't mean things are magically okay! This means (IMO) that I am on the right track with concentrating on myself and living my own life. Something I am doing is working...this is results monitoring now. H responded very positively to my trip away, and seems to like it when I have a life of my own that I'm enjoying.

So today I am celebrating finding something that seems to be working, both for me and for my M.
Hugs to all,
Myrrh