Moving past the WAW-MCL to a stronger me

[Davide]

But what does that look like?

In the first few days or weeks post BD I sobbed and raged in impotence and resentment and anger. I did all that.

But recently, tears don't come. I feel anxiety. I feel a sadness and hopelessness -- but it is almost hollow. I'm sad but not hysterical. Just sad. Sad that our depression f#$ked up a great relationship. Sad that she cant see how much of a better man I have become. Sad that I cant go back and look at photos of us without going down cheeseless tunnels. I also feel lonely. I miss the intimacy of the relationship. I miss my best friend as well as my wife. I miss the person whose touch could calm me.

I feel like breaking down sobbing, or raging against something would be healthier -to get it out. But I dont feel that now. And I am worried if I am just burying it deep...