Today is rough. Second Sunday in a row. I slept OK last night. But today I can't get the thoughts out of my head. I feel lonely and sad and hopeless. I went to the gym and am on a group bike ride so I am doing the right things but it isn't helping.
I keep reading that you have to experience the emotions, go through them rather than trying to distract yourself or avoid them. I wonder if I have been avoiding recently, just denying them and playing strong because that is what I need to be for myself and to maintain any hope in R. How do I let myself sit with emotions without wallowing, without going down the same cheeselse's tunnels, without losing myself in the beautiful memories we shared?
It's at moments like this that I wonder if this isn't just too hard.
W 34 Me 42 Married 7 years together 8 0 kids 1 beloved dog BD 4/6/2018 I moved out 4/7/2018 I moved back in alone 8/05/2018 I file 3/06/2019 D official 5/7/2019