Can I really do this #2

[Dtrmned]

W admitted to going through my phone last evening.
She almost apologized.
Simply said she was sorry since that was way out of character for her to do that. Not that she was sorry for actually doing it.

We spoke for a bit on communication and such. Validated her thoughts but didn't excuse the action by saying "we used to talk about everything, I can understand by us not communicating as much you would have questions about what I am doing.

I didn't ask "if you don't care about me or us, why would you do this?" or anything like that. She tried to turn it to her advantage saying "this just proves how toxic we are and why we should not be together". I simply said again that whatever she has to do to justify her actions in her own mind are her choice.

She is struggling with this and it shows in her mood swings, sleep habits, now snooping, detaching, etc. Couldn't talk long yesterday due to a migraine, couldn't sleep and she got up at 4 this morning with neck pain so I imagine she will be taking a nap later on this afternoon.

This is only going to get worse as she pushes this forward. One of the things she saw on my phone were my own mediation notes to myself as I was putting them together. Nothing bad and of course most were slanted in my direction (don't you always go in asking for more than what you will settle for). I'm glad she saw that, maybe that will wake her up a little bit about how real this will be.

I cut off the conversation pretty quickly last evening so as to not let it get out of control. She needs to stew on this for awhile.