Hey V! Yes, completely agree. I do believe the way you self-talk makes a huge difference. I changed my self-talk for my habits and it has made a big difference. Like - I don't miss workouts, rather than I can't miss workouts.
Yes, I have to choose to let go of the anger and tell myself that. Key distinction. I feel quite healthy lately mentally and so I know I am in a place where I can choose to let go of the anger and move forward fully.