Sincerely THANK YOU for your very kind words! When truly feeling like my life is in total devastation it is so wonderful to hear such positive, supporting words!
I ask my IC about bipolar, but was advised no as best I know there are no associated manic states. My IC does agree that she needs treatment and that she will likely spiral until she hits rock bottom, whatever shape that make ultimately take. The mood swings and other psychosomatic changes associated with her diet pills may be exacerbating an underlying depression. She has told me previously that she was treated as clinically depressed following her last relationship. Add to that some likely undisclosed and therefore, untreated post partum and as my IC put it, your W has a ton of baggage. I was told I could not have foreseen the changes in my W following the birth of our D and as W decided to not come forward with her unhappiness about motherhood it has likely festered such that she has instead projected all of her anger/resentment/etc on to me.
LOL not everyday you get the news that you are now the living embodiment of all the hatred living within the one you've vowed to love forever and most certainly do.
My daughter, faith, hope, time, love those are all I have. W will likely divorce me immediately when she can with no explanation of why nor having lifted a single finger to do a single thing to try and save our MR. My D therefore at 3 will likely NEVER have the blessing to have a lasting memory of a shared happy experience with her mother and father. How my W will be able to live with herself with such a guilt, shame, regret...quite simply I'm glad that I will always be able to tell my D that her father did all he could and would have moved heaven and earth to save her family.
