MY TRAGIC WAW STORY PART VIII

[ItHurts]

Thank you for the advice guys, it means a lot.
Yes Caz I suppose I am in the exact quandary you describe. Part of me wants to cut to the chase and just talk to her about our future. But I am also impatient by nature and I worry that this tendency of mine to be impatient, even in other areas of my life, will taint my good decision making here. Slow and steady wins this race as one person said here...or go for the jugular and just ask her out and if she refuses then I know where I stand and I could start limiting contact with her.

Which brings me to Si07's post. What do I want? Well obviously I want to R...I have since the day she left. However when I say I don't care what happens either way, I guess that's a poor choice of words. I do care of course; but what I mean is I won't be heartbroken if it doesn't happen solely because I'm not fearful of having to live without her either. That part is a luxury I didn't enjoy when she first left. So it's not that I don't care, I'm just not afraid of a negative end result.

Also, I do update everything that happens here also because it helps newbies who are suffering through those awful post-bomb months. It gives them hope that anything can happen in the future. If me posting here helps these folks deal with that awful pain and despair a bit better, as many have posted that it does, that is also why I update as things happen. So my reasons are twofold really. For example, sure it's not a big update that WAW texted me a sentence yesterday saying she hopes I feel better; but to a newbie who would cut their arm off for their WAW to text them anything at all...it might make a difference. This plus I want to be sure you guys know everything...you never know if there's a nuggetbif info to be had from what seems like a very trivial and insignificant update from me.