Thanks Arsh! Yes, the relationship with the kids is the key priority and making sure they're secure, safe, and in a healthy environment. That was my first concern with BD and everything. I have created a good home for them and we spend a lot of quality time together and there is a lot of love. I'd say much more than before because I've become a better parent through this process.
I am in a really good place now. I do still get plagued by little things here and there, but I am able to deal with it quite productively. I know that it's not going to go away completely, but I have control in how I let it affect me and have power over me.
I want to be with someone who is bananas about me and vice versa - through my flaws and weaknesses, but still know that I am worthy and what I have in my awesome column is far more important than my flaws.
I know it's hard to see that you'll get to this place early on, but trust me when you do, it's so liberating because you know what you got is good. And then you improve yourself and it's even better.
Remember - No help is coming! You are on this journey on your own pretty much. It's a DIY scenario. Go grab it by the reins and steer it, rather than the bull taking you where it wants to go.
