Wow. I have read H emails a few times and I am still not entirely sure what he is trying to say, I am not sure he knows either. It is hard to read. I know it is written in english but those words do not usually get strung together like that.
Good for you giving him the spreadsheet. It was received about as well as expected, but he will probably study it a bit and it just may deflect some future questions.
And great on your revelation. You do not have to leave this summer. You do not need to jump when his says boo. You are not obligated to do anything he says. Do what Gerda wants.
Also a big barbecue would be awesome!
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
