Withdrawal, The Worst Stage Yet?

[Rita]

I had a revelation while sitting here trying to work. I realized that my terror is that I would have to leave my home and wander around with my kids. So I am sitting here telling myself, "You don't have to leave this summer, you don't have to leave this summer," and it gives me some strength to stand up to my H if he gives me a hard time. I am living in this insanity for so long that I get confused by his seemingly calm and normal e-mail about leaving and begin to think that I am obligated to do that to "help" our family. But I don't have to leave. I can leave if I want, but I don't have to. Someone here posted to me recently that it would pragmatic to try to get him the money he needs to get him to leave for a while. So that is what I am hoping to do.

Thinking of all of you believing in me and understanding the truth is very helpful to me, thank you to you all. I wish we could all meet for a big virtual barbecue.