New Year, new thinking..

[Coly23]

Hi Own, thanks for your visit.

I think if there was an OW I would not be asking him to stay for a BBQ if that makes sense? I guess that would ultimately lead to me letting go/detaching a bit easier if I felt I didn't want that sort of interaction with him.

Also I'm not desperate to know, but if there is or was one I don't think I will be in as much mess as I would have been a few months ago. This time last year I would have probably folded into a heap on the floor but now even though it would hurt I know it won't be the end of my world.

I just want Sunday to be a nice relaxing day. I know I might have a teeny tiny bit of expectation but I am going to consciously hold that in check. My daughter is expecting me to crumble after he goes and if I do then so be it as long as he doesn't see it!

So, it's been an absolutely beautiful long weekend here. The sun is shining and it is very warm even in the evening. Not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow though!!