It has been 5 months and I was hit with divorce papers in February. Still dont have any type of agreement, and she keeps flip flopping on what she says as for custody of our child. Over the last few months, anytime i didnt agree with her on something she would use my daughter as leverage by saying she was going to ask for full custody. Mid march I just told her you do what you have to do.
You know alot of people say that when you go through this process that there will be a point where you will be hit with whether or not you want to be with your wife and reconcile if that option comes available. Well i hit that point last month and decided I dont want a reconciliation. I just want an amicable divorce. I will be very content with joint custody and should have no issue getting it in Dallas county hopefully.
As for Gal, I am usually out and about with friends during the week. I have began talking to ladies at bar's and find I have much more success in person than online. One thing I have noticed about online is there are lot of scams and catfishing, so I try to keep messaging brief and push for a meet in person very quickly. The point being i dont want a person who just texts and I want to make sure in person that she meets the quality's that I am looking for. I do need to hit the gym more as i still have around 100# to lose, that will come in time though. I just need to stay active. I did buy a bike and do go cycling which I find very fun and relaxing. Bike riding was something that I have not done since I was a teenager, so it brought back many of good memories.
There is a saying here that is passed around to become the person only a fool would leave, I agree with this action, but I will never personally think this way. I all I can do is act to the best of my abilities and let other people make that generalization. I will never think that she is a fool to not come back, because I am not one to say I am better than someone else she might meet. Also, I just do not care who she will meet now. I just hope it will be someone who will be nice to my daughter.
All I know is I deserve someone who will treat me better than she did. My heart is open again to meet someone new and love them, but I now have a boundary set that i will not be afraid to leave a relationship if that future person over steps that boundary.
I do know that she no longer has an effect over me or control me in any type of way. Which is probably why i am getting more attitude from her, but i dont react to it, I just stay calm and collective which seems to make her even more mad in the moment. I have become a man of action, try to live in the moment, and let my actions speak for who i am. A friend told me my ex has just given you the keys to your freedom, enjoy it.
So all in all, I am doing well and look forward to the future and what it may bring.
Rexgm
M:43 W:33 M:10 T:11 D:6 BD 8/12/17 Divorce Final 1/23/2019
