Hi Eric, Please post rest of the story, we all need to read more of these. I absolutely agree success is measured by how each of us evolves as an individual, our minds have the amazing capability to process and accept any harsh realities eventually. The original aim of every poster here though is to save the current MR, the veterans support us through the healing process irrespective of the fact if the MR can be saved or not. Your story can act as a proven concept of what did work and what did not work like Steve points out. For most of us it is a symbiotic approach here, but in your case although you are out of your own hell, you are taking time to revisit the dark times and advice the rest of us who are still facing the demons. It takes a kind heart to do that, thank you.