Afraid of the dark PART 3

[Ste7e]

LH I think in this case you are wrong.
Called her again because she need so come watch the pets when i am out of town.
I actually am starting to think this whole DB thing is not entirely for me. As I pulled away went dark pretended to not care she just went further into wanting a D more and more and actually started to work on getting one.
No she will not get a restraining order I am not a creep.
She has been the one who has stressed to me and others that she really wants to be friends.
Maybe I look pathetic but I am responding to what she wants and after all the other cheese less paths this was the only one which actually got a favorable response.
I seriously think that this is all about the construct of M in her mind which is making her feel trapped.
What is my other option play hardball and be rigid my way or the highway that is who I was how is that a 180?
I also don't see sitting idle and just let my M slip away as an option either.
If both roads lead to D why not go the path where at least I tried?
At this point D is inevitable, but that doesn't mean a R isn't possible. I don't know I have done a bad job of portraying her here.
Also she has an ex who never talked to her again and completely shut her out so she is not fazed by that and if anything that irritates her in a negative way where she just shuts down. The more contact we have the more she seems to soften and start to see the real me vs the negative construct in her head.
I could also be completely wrong and she has been having an A this whole time and I am a fool.

What I do see work is to spend time together and not to engage in R talk that one seems to make her put up blockers. She doesn't seem to trust me for some reason and that is something I need to rebuild. I would love other stake on this too.