It's easy for me to get really down, up, down, up, and back down. It's part of the ADHD thing. And it really, really [censored].
She's already initiated the D, but she hasn't really been talking about it lately. I think it confuses me that she's happy to see what she thinks is me doing well. I can't tell if it's reinforcing her beliefs or mine...and it's just...confusing.
I'm going to keep going with this. I know that there's been small amounts of progress, but I also know that so far it hasn't really appeared to make a huge impact. But changes that are worth making are the ones that take time and effort.
I'm just tired. But I'm going to try to keep pushing forward. My son and I (and even she) deserve a happy family. I just hope that one day we can get back to being that.
