Man I am struggling with accepting that the OR is dead. The talks last night just destroyed me. I guess I had been and still am operating like she will eventually want Rec. which I don't think will ever happen. I just keep hoping she will snap out of it because my wife is not the person I married or even the person she was 6 months ago. She acts like and talks like she has joined a cult or something. I just don't understand. I am in a lot of pain part of me thinks I should just pack up my things and move away to another town sell the house and go. I don't even have a job here or any real attachments at this point besides the house. I have just been staying here because I wanted W to come back. Where is me in that? She isn't coming back at least not to this. Is my leaving the ultimate 180.
M 40 W 34 Together 7 Married 2 No Kids BD 1/18 need space Moved out 2/18 ILYBNILWY & Asked for D 3/18 W filed for D 6/18 D final 10/18
