She knows I've been reading...

[sandi2]

I'm actually better off without the medications that were keeping me messed up inside

Is this medication for the ADHD? I hope you will consult with the doctor before you just stop taking any medication. If that one keeps you messed up, maybe a different one would help you feel more normal.

She's not seeing that part of the equation. That's the hard part. I believe she's still trying to justify leaving, which from what I understand is just part of the script.

Correct me if I'm wrong, but I get the feeling you told her about ending the meds, hoping it would sway her to reconsider the M.

Does anyone have any experience with that? Should I stay the course? Give up?

Based on the fact she didn't think your meds played a part in the breakdown of your MR?
You have to do what is best for your health and happiness.....whether or not it gets your W back.

She said that we don't have a love problem...we both love each other...but the thing she would have to see is that when we are angry, we still respect each other. We don't lash out and try to tear each other down.

We both admitted that yes, things are broken, but the fact that I got an honest answer in the first place is just...amazing!

She needs to feel respected, even if I'm angry at her. And she also said she needs to feel that way towards me.

Only one of those factors are in my control...how I handle my anger towards her.

How you handle your anger towards her probably played a big part of the breakdown in the MR. It is not the only issue that currently exsits. You failed to mention her Girl Gone Wild behavior. I am concerned how you take on the project of finding the right formula to use in pleasing or persuading your WW to give you another chance. Like many guys, all you can focus on is just getting her back again.

If you have anger issues, then take anger management. Take a course in how to fight fairly, or keeping respectable communication. It's going to be difficult to show a lot of respect for her when she is not demonstrating very respectable standards in her life. I'm just saying that it's not just your side of the street that needs cleaning. However, I do agree that this part is up to you.

Make your decisions based on what you want and what is best for you and son. Don't fall into the trap of trying to convince her you are good enough for her to consider reconciling. Only consistent actions and time can do that job.