O..... Need to read your entire thread as I've only skimmed through the last two pages. From my own experience all I can say is I wanted everything you want, I wanted a second chance to work on our M, I wanted an apology, I wanted a lot from my XW that I will most likely never get but I am in a place where I don't need it anymore. I searched for answers even though these boards told me not to snoop, I did and I found out more than I ever wanted to know. It destroyed me to find out the woman I loved more than anything could do this to me, to us! I wish I could go back and hit the reset button on my DB journey, I would change a whole lot of how I acted and started GAL and detachment much sooner!
Maika gave you some great advice on what you need to do, work on yourself! I learned this way to late but GAL is to save you! there are no truer words than that!
Originally Posted By: OrangeK
Im just going to keep my head down and get through to the weekend. I need this weekend really bad. Im trying not to call out of work tomorrow, as i am sorely tempted to do so. I NEED the time to myself.
Don't hang your head, pick it up and go do something, anything. Make sure to keep yourself busy as this will keep your mind off it, as soon as you sit around with any down time you mind drifts off what the hell happened land. Stay busy!
Originally Posted By: OrangeK
but i am on thin ice with work as it
Does you boss know what's going on? My boss who is also a friend knew something was up, he actually got information for me to see an IC. But... I was a terrible employee all last year and I am finally getting my mojo back at work. My boss gave me the time and space I needed to for one stayed employed but also kept HR off my back. No shame in letting people know what's going on.
