When the Judge asked us if we were reconciling, she paused and waited for me to answer. this may be it.
This is it. this is why im spiraling today. it just hit me like a ton of bricks.
So her hesitation to answer made you think there was hope? It is the first time you were in the same room together, and could hear each other voices, in months. You don't think that had anything to do with her hesitation? I think to read too much into that hesitation, is dangerous (IE we are having this discussion!). Could have been she expected you to jump in and say yes, not because she wanted it but because she expected you to want it. Or maybe she was ready for the question so she wanted to see if you would jump in an answer before she did? Or maybe she hesitated on all of the questions posed to her by the judge (IDK, I wasn't there).
Who knows, but I would try to view it objectively. What have all of her actions been in all the time that the TRO has been in place? Actions mean more than words. Actions mean more than lack of words. Does her hesitation at the judge's question trump all of her actions?
OK, I feel like you are tired of my advice. So I will back off for a while. Know that I pray for you and your S everyday.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
